SHAFAQNA- Ali Al Romani, Canadian New Shia Muslim
I Fell in love with the Personality of Imam Ali Ibn Abi Talib(as) because I see him as the father I never had.
According to rahyafte (the missionaries and converts website) I recently took my Shahada at the Iranian Islamic Centre in Montreal, 3 months ago Alhamdoulilah. I was a Christian before but I really studied in depth every religion of the world (Judaism, Christianity and all its sects , Buddhism, Hinduism, Sikhism, Zoroastrianism, etc) and I even had an Atheist passage.
Even after studying all these religions I still couldn’t fill the emptiness in my heart. I am originally from Romania but I am mixed and since my birth even though I had a father he never acted like a father. So I didn’t grow up normally like the other children. I always had this thing missing, this fatherly love I never had.
Going through my teenage years was hard (I am 18 now) I was bullied a lot coming here in Quebec, Canada because I was different and I grew bitter of both my father and the people around me. I had nothing, nor was I Romanian, nor was I Canadian. I had a passage where I drank and I smoked and this never made me feel better neither.
Then when I was 16 I moved to a new school where there was muslims. I started talking to them and I learned about Islam and I read the Quran, I was amazed by its beauty but some of my muslim friends (I am not judging just stating facts) were having premarital relations, smoking and drinking and I was confused about it. I started thinking of Muslims. I was disgusted by the fatalism shown by some of them. I abandoned Islam and I Started to get really depressed again, taking medication, having suicidal thoughts etc. But Allah(Subhanu wa Taala) didn’t give up on me.
When I started College I met this very nice and friendly Afghani. We became friends really fast and I started to ask him questions about his Religion. He told me he was a Shia Muslim. Of course at first I was disturbed because all I heard about shias is that they are a Jew made group who worships Imam Ali(as) as a God and they hurt themselves. But then Alhamdoulilah I started seeking and going deeper and I was amazed by the Beauty of The Shia school of thought!
A whole new perspective was opened to me. I Fell in love with the Personality of Imam Ali Ibn Abi Talib(as) because I see him as the father I never had. After 1 or 2 weeks of investigation I decided to take my Shahada on the 1th of Muharram Alhamdoulilah. I never regretted my decision. Of course The cursed Shaytan tries to make me doubt some time but I stand still with the truth. My parents know and I have big problems with my father about it, he always tries to bring me down, and he insults RasoulAllah (salallahu alayhi wa salam) and Imam Ali(as) but Inshallah in the 2-3 next months I will depart for Iran to study at Qom Hawza!